Life of a Bug

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Antarang

We all get these vibrations from within ,quite literally called 'Antarang' in hindi. Something that makes us reflect on the world around us.
There is no conclusion to this post but just one of my 'Antarang'.
Consider this
1:
You are in your car or on a bike and stop on a light. Lost in your thought,waiting for the signal to turn green ,when a beggar tap for arm. Almost startled, you exclaim 'Go away' or 'Agay chalo' or 'Hogo' . You look away and block the beggar out and assume he is not around. You try to go back to your thoughts and move on with your life. May be because you know there is no solution to the problem. As part of growing up we learn to block out the things that we do not want to think about.
Consider this now
2:You did not sleep in your usual bed, last night. Next morning,you wake up and open your eyes to strange surroundings. It takes you few seconds to get re-oriented and recall that you did not sleep at home last night.
When we find it so weird to wake up in a strange room and immediately question 'Where am I', how come we never ask 'Who am I?Why am I here? Why Earth? What is with this Universe?What was there before the time?The purpose of life and universe? What part of my body is actually 'me'?
I should not say that we do not ask , the thought crosses our mind but just like other complex problems , we just block these questions out.
The questions is screaming at you all the time in the form of Sun during day or countless stars at night. You look up and you know your existence is negligible in the whole scheme.
Since the beginning of human existence, the sky has been poking the same question but we roll up our windows and look away. We know there is no possible answer so we defined our Gods ,religions and social rules. We grow up ,get married ,make babies and then get busy to support them. We do our bit towards the 'continuity' of human life and move on. There is enough material in the world for you to worry about, so that you do not think about the most obvious-'where am I'?
Is not it the craziest thing- we ignore the most obvious question and continue with our imaginary lives.